I cannot expand on this enough on how important it is for you to take care of yourself. We are constantly on the go and involved with the hustle and bustle of life that we forget that we are not machines. We cannot just plug ourselves up to get recharged and ready to move again – we are human beings who will literally break down and crash (die) if we do not handle ourselves with care. I’m writing this because it has been a wake-up call for me and I care about you so much that I want it to resonate with you as well.
If you have been reading my blog for the last couple of months, you know I have been in transition in a lot of areas in my life. From moving back home, to changing friendships, finding myself, dating, and switching jobs. It’s no secret – a matter of fact nothing about my blog is a secret, but I DO NOT adjust well. During these transitions, my mental health has taken a hit. I have experienced more anxiety attacks than I can keep track of and I’ve even debated just quitting it all. I got depressed because I actually had to do things to take care of myself – doesn’t that just sound crazy? But that’s just what I mean, how I got so used to doing so much, yet not enough for me.
Anxiety kills… I started experiencing a lot of chest pains in October and I was not quite sure what was going on. Over time, I began to have symptoms of a heart attack and stroke and I knew that things just had to get better. My adjustment skills are not on fleek but I am working really hard for them to be. You know life is such a journey that it encompasses a lot all at once. In one way its beautiful, ugly, complicated, understandable, your best friend, your ex from hell and so on. I’ve been trying to figure it all out but the truth is I don’t think we ever will. Anxiety started knocking on my door and I didn’t really have anything to fight with.
The transitions were just overwhelming… I was making decisions I never have before and it was just so damn scary. I didn’t know what I was gonna do but I had to be vulnerable AF! I needed the strength of my support system and embrace their love and kindness. That sounds good and easy, but it’s not. When you are facing anxiety, depression, or any other mental health burden if you are like me, you tend to just want to hide in a hole and never come out.
Anxiety kills… but you are far more precious to let it take you out. Let’s make a deal that we will talk more about these things to find and give support to others just alike. Normalize the FACT that this is real and it happens. There is no magic potion to make it go away, but there are tons of resources… therapy, religious affiliation, loved ones etc.