Cycles of Life, Mental Health, Self-Esteem

Anxiety Kills & My Adjustment Skills Are Not On Fleek

I cannot expand on this enough on how important it is for you to take care of yourself. We are constantly on the go and involved with the hustle and bustle of life that we forget that we are not machines. We cannot just plug ourselves up to get recharged and ready to move again – we are human beings who will literally break down and crash (die) if we do not handle ourselves with care. I’m writing this because it has been a wake-up call for me and I care about you so much that I want it to resonate with you as well.

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If you have been reading my blog for the last couple of months, you know I have been in transition in a lot of areas in my life. From moving back home, to changing friendships, finding myself, dating, and switching jobs. It’s no secret – a matter of fact nothing about my blog is a secret, but I DO NOT adjust well. During these transitions, my mental health has taken a hit. I have experienced more anxiety attacks than I can keep track of and I’ve even debated just quitting it all. I got depressed because I actually had to do things to take care of myself – doesn’t that just sound crazy? But that’s just what I mean, how I got so used to doing so much, yet not enough for me.

Anxiety kills… I started experiencing a lot of chest pains in October and I was not quite sure what was going on. Over time, I began to have symptoms of a heart attack and stroke and I knew that things just had to get better. My adjustment skills are not on fleek but I am working really hard for them to be. You know life is such a journey that it encompasses a lot all at once. In one way its beautiful, ugly, complicated, understandable, your best friend, your ex from hell and so on. I’ve been trying to figure it all out but the truth is I don’t think we ever will. Anxiety started knocking on my door and I didn’t really have anything to fight with.

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The transitions were just overwhelming… I was making decisions I never have before and it was just so damn scary. I didn’t know what I was gonna do but I had to be vulnerable AF! I needed the strength of my support system and embrace their love and kindness. That sounds good and easy, but it’s not. When you are facing anxiety, depression, or any other mental health burden if you are like me, you tend to just want to hide in a hole and never come out.

Anxiety kills… but you are far more precious to let it take you out. Let’s make a deal that we will talk more about these things to find and give support to others just alike. Normalize the FACT that this is real and it happens. There is no magic potion to make it go away,  but there are tons of resources… therapy, religious affiliation, loved ones etc.

As Always,

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25 thoughts on “Anxiety Kills & My Adjustment Skills Are Not On Fleek”

  1. Wow! This really hits home. I went through a period of mad anxiety. I though I was having heart problems, the chest pains we’re so bad. Self care is so important. Thank you for sharing. It feels better to know that you are not alone.

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  2. You’ve got this! This is definitely something that needs to be spoken about more often. Life is hard, shit happens but just knowing you are not alone when you feel like your the only person in the world dealing with this, makes a world of difference.

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  3. I’m so glad you wrote this… It can be so hard. I have had those same kinds of panic attacks. It is so scary. What worked for me is placing my anxiety on God, trusting him to take care of me. I hope you find something that works 💕

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  4. I’ve always struggled with times of transition, too. The fear of the unknown makes me anxious beyond belief. I’m so grateful to have learned what I need to do to help myself control anxiety in these times but it took years of trial and error. You’re so right. The hardest thing to do when you’re anxious is take care of yourself but self-care is so often the best solution to what’s weighing on you.

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  5. You hit the nail on the head! Anxiety causes so many other problems physically and emotionally it can truly be devastating. I have been dealing with this as well. A support system is good but bringing this subject out and normalizing with other women is the key. Thank you for sharing your story!

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  6. I suffer from very bad anxiety and depression as well. It is HARD! A support system is good but you have to educate them in order for them to truly be there. (I learned that the hard way). Thanks for shedding light on such a hidden topic.

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  7. Struggle, depression , anxiety and transition are things I know all too well. Thank you for sharing so that many others can know they are not alone. You are brave and I’m inspired.

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  8. I love that you allowed yourself to be vulnerable with this post. We don’t talk about anxiety enough — especially in our community. I’m glad you took the steps to figure out what’s going on too. Recognizing it is the first step in managing anxiety.

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  9. Great post and I’m happy to hear/read you are recognizing health issues connected to not taking enough time out for rest. I always have this problem and it always comes to bite me in the end but this is definitely motivation for me to rest more often.

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  10. I truly hope that you are getting all the love and support that you need to get through this!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story. So many will benefit from it. And I now have a better understanding of what anxiety is.

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  11. Good job on this post sis. Writing about it is always a good way to relive some of that stress! Anxiety and lots of mental health issues do kill and with anxiety I know it’s mainly the overwhelming feeling of STRESS. We tend to think to much about the future and not enough of the NOW. Enjoying the moment as it is. It’s not easy to control your thoughts feelings etc but I think with meditating and therapy eating right exercising and remembering to BREATHE in the mist of an attack can help bring you back to center. I pray for our healing.✨ check out the app called “Calm” as well as a book called “a better way to think” this helped me a WHOLE lot with my anxiety

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