You get a vision of something you’ve always wanted to do, maybe it was delayed by fear or the lack of necessities to carry it through. But the vision is clear and loud to the point it speaks to you non-stop. That’s what my experience has been like on this journey of blogging. It was filled with excitement and this adrenaline rush flowed through once I gave fear an eviction notice. But something changed along the way, something that put a pause to the powerful thrust of emotions I had regarding blogging.
“I’m just gonna have fun, no pressure, just my truth and simply just fun” is what I held onto in the beginning. Overtime, I’ve connected with other bloggers and began doing research and it wasn’t that anymore. It wasn’t fun, it felt like it became a job, a vehicle for competition and an overall headache. I went from this is “therapeutic for me ” to “how am I gonna get this money.” The pressure was on but my desire began to fade away.
Now, I’ve gone through some transitions.. again and it disrupted my flow of trying to be consistent and gain readers. Trying to stay afloat of it all, I found myself in a pool of blogging groups, engaging in DM threads that I could keep count of, and a tired mine and finger tips that simple didn’t want to exist in the blogging world. With all of this happening, I got caught up in the rapture.
As the old folks would say, I’m trying to get my groove back. The lighter for my flame is flickering but I’m still pressing on. I’ve learned something crucial during my down time from blogging. One thing that I learned is that it’s only the beginning and there’s no rush to push out my vision. The vision never died, I just need to clear off the fog and cob webs. As I’m learning to be patient with myself, I hope that if this resonated with you in any way you will find that same patience within in.